The mask!

The latest is I'm going to have radiotherapy in the new year.
Not because there has been a progression or I've got the dreaded "c" word. It's in an attempt to control my seizures. My mdt agree that after trying 10 different aed's it's time to try something else. So thats the plan. Me & lee totally agree and we actually suggested it in the first place. We feel like we've been treading water with it all for 3 yrs. Side effects verses seizures for fucking 3 yrs now enough enough I've had a fucking enough already.
I think I've had a good go and I think thats why they are agreeing on this option for me.
The oncologist told us there is a 50/50 chance it will make any difference to my seizures. But hey it's not gonna make em worse so fuck it why not? I know it's gonna make me really ill for most of the year, but it's better than treading water for another 3yrs.
It's the mask I'm dreading at the moment and having that moulded & made for my face ready to start my treatment. I'm not claustrophobic....well I don't think I am! It's just the thought of having something over my face when I'm not sure how they will do it or how it will fit/sit. It's just the not knowing I think.
Losing bits of my hair is a whole other story.