So what is 2015 gonna bring!!?

Things are still hard!! Maybe even harder And now we know why.

Scan results just before crimbo revealed that I now have a considerable amount of scar tissue on my brain. Scar tissue caused by the radiotherapy I had back in feb 2012. Apparently the scaring can continue to grow 3-5years post treatment!!! (very common) WTF Seriously! We were never told about this, no info on what happens after a year! 

This is why I'm struggling more cognitively and with the long term side effects of the radiotherapy!!! 

2015 Jane Shann mushy pea brain (stage 2) age 36

Takes me so fucking long to do everything :-( I feel so knackered and useless! Fuck it!!!

SO shattered my eyelids r barely open!

I'm soooo fucking shattered all the time! It's really pissing me off now.
I would often have stages of fatigue and stages of energy each lasting a few weeks at a time.
But I have been in this state of fatigue for months now :-( some days not even having the mental energy to type an email or text.
All part of long term side effects of radiotherapy I spose!

STILL NO FUCKING HAIR it ain't gonna grow back now! (radiotherapy Feb 2012)

Some days I just feel like a useless scabby arse hole. This week is one of those days.

Also coming up to 6yrs (Dec 8th) I start thinking about it all at the this time of the year! But I just get on with it.

Thinking of you all....

Thinking of everyone who suffers!!
Suffers pain, whether it be in their body, heart or mind.
It's there with you every moment of every day. Some of us "get it" others not a clue!
Sending a thought to you all x

Just realised....

I haven't made a post since Oct 2013! WTF!! didn't realise it had been soooo long
Hey there my lovelies

HAPPY NEW YEAR (we hope)
The year to be happy
The year to be strong
The year to be loved
The year not to go wrong

Twat in a Hat (part 1)

Hair......Still the fucking same

Radiotherapy february 2012
These photo's March 2014
I think for sure this is now my permanent hair :-( ......mother fuckers

Just to let you know....

I fucking love Crisps :-)
.........and my favourite swear word is fucking ;-) ...really!! I hear u cry 'we never would of guessed' :-)

WOW it's all about the birthday's

I am currently planning Jamies 7th birthday party. I was diagnosed when he was 2 and I didn't think I'd get to see his first day at school.
Happy days :-)

Also I'm approaching another birthday soon. Instead of feeling depressed about getting older. I celebrate another year survived.