Wish I was 'The Happy Person', but I'm just a miserable fucker!! oh well
'Live life to the fullest' is quite an easy thing to say really. But what is the fullest? and does anyone know of anyone that they think does that? and is it a realistic way to be? is it relative to each individual person? (eg beauty is in the eye of the beholder) how is it possible to do/be like that when there are always repercussions or consequences to your actions?
Does 'live life to the fullest' mean.....
Go off traveling around the world?
Sell your house
take your children out of school
money/dept
Making your house somewhere extra lovely to live or moving to a bigger more luxury house?
money/dept
stress of living with all the building work
moving away
Stop doing all the boring house work?
live in a shit pit
your kids go to school dirty in dirty clothes
get ill through using same plate 5 times!!
wear same knickers for a week, buy more knickers when you run out of clean ones
Do what ever you want to do? what ever it is?
money/dept
family & friends
your children
health
Moving and living abroad?
Leaving family
changing jobs
leaving support
Giving up or changing your job?
Security for you/your family
Mortgage and bills to pay
Responsibilities
Taking risks
What is it you want to do?
To be a good parent
To secure somewhere to live
You and your children to have friends & family close by
Your children to have a good education
To manage your money and not be in debt or to leave debts behind for others
To look after your family and make sure they are all okay
To spend time with the ones you love.
Is this what they mean by 'living your life to the fullest' 'living every day as it comes' or is this just what we all do? or am I completely missing the point? am I looking on the negative side of everything? I could do lots of things to live my life a bit fuller or try and change things to make me more of 'the happy person' but there would be repercussions or consequences.
Do we not do any of these things because we are scared too, do we just get used to our 'ground hog day' lives or just care too much about the repercussions or consequences to others or ourselves.
But then everyone always says as long as we've got our health!!
I'm fucked there then!!!!!
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I have made a list very much like this! I have a low grade tumour in a risky place so no operation til it shows signs of getting nasty. I have secondary generalised and partial seizures depending on how stressed/depressed/tired I am. I am on Keppra and luckily its not too bad. Had Tegretol first but had massive allergic reaction and had to come off it straight away. Keppra makes me a miserable cow I'm sure of it, and gives me the most mental dreams, but better than nearly dying!!
ReplyDeleteI could really do with chatting someone in the same pit of despair as me :)
parkinson29@btinternet.com
Hi Ruth,
ReplyDeleteAfter being diagnosed I think everyone goes through different experiences/stages at different times and trying to except your treatment plan as 'wait & see' is one of the hardest parts. I was told what stages I would go through after diagnosis eg anger, grief, remorse etc.I just thought 'you don't know me, fuck off' 'I'm different from the "stages"'
At the end of the day I'm just Jane and my blog is my thing. I am still struggling with my seizures and because of that I am reminded of my tumour every day.