I'm a gym bunny again!!

It's really hard going back to the gym. Not physically but mentally difficult.
After being a fitness & aerobics instructor for nearly 8yrs, loving my job, being G.I Jane, being super fit and teaching other people. To now go back to a gym and be a "newbe" being treated like a "numpty" is not a nice way to start back.
Loads of things remind me of my work days in the gym (obvious) breaks my heart a little bit.
I have said to them that I had used gyms for 7yrs previous to my diagnosis and that I am an experienced gym user, so they are not under any impression that I'm a beginner or someone that doesn't really know what they are doing.
(I haven't done any exercise for about 2 years now)

I deliberately didn't want to tell them what I used to do for a living, I just want to be me and due to personal experience I know instructors tend to un intentionally change the way they are with you once they know you are or were an instructor! Things like "oh you probably know that already" or "you could probably teach me a thing or two" or "you won't need me to show you that"....that sort of thing!!
But I obviously have to tell them about my epilepsy and it's like they are putting the kid gloves on and telling me to take it easy before they even know what I can do, like "do a step forward instead of a lunge" as if I have never done exercise before. I don't wanna do fucking steps forward!

My doctor even wrote them a letter saying I am physically able to take part in ANY exercise as long as they or the person with me know how to help/react to my seizures.
I just wanna get in there & get BEASTED!! But it seems like they are affraid of me doing anything more than a walk on the treadmill in case my epileptic brain explodes.

I found it really hard today to stand there and be understanding and patient with the instructor.
I know what it's like to be the other side, to be an instructor and I know how difficult it can be sometimes. Plus they don't know me!!

I will probably end up being like a thorn in there side. But I'm not going to fanny about and I am going to get the most out of this.
I'm facing the fear and am brave enough to go, so I don't want to waste my time whilst I'm there.
I've got my fitness test next week, I'll show all the determination (and tea fuel) Jane Shann is made of :-)

Don't worry.... I know my limits (years of training don't you know)
I expect a lot of you are reading this and thinking I'm a complete loon......Yeah, your probably right.