Day 27 of 30

Head update. Not as sore now. How Trendy?? :-)

OMG just had a the shittiest couple days. Had to sleep through most of it! Not just tired shit, but oh my god they are actually poisoning me kinda shit. Also bit emotional. I had one of my fuck fuckedy fuck days, just thinking about 'what about after?' how shit our life situation is, how shit other people can be etc, I think the whole brother situation brought all of that on, oh and I saw someone from my 'old work' at the hospital. So all of the above was wrapped up in a little bundle present of shit. I prefer grapes, the seedless kind thanks.
I cried, Lee loved me better and then he made me some of his lush scrambled eggs on toast :-)
I'm lucky I have my close family to love me better & make me smile and laugh. My boys have been brilliant, me and lee are sooooo proud of Jamie.
Got a constant sicky feeling thing going on. I'm drinking about 6 bottles of water a day (you can't even tell I've weee'd it's so clear)
Prepare yourself for the next bit................
I've gone off T a bit, WHAT!!! gone from 10-15 cups a day to less than 5.......I know!!!
and wait for it...... chocolate as well. I have practically got a basket full of chocolate in my room.
Because of my sicky thing. I just wanna drink cold water, melon & grapes and plain food like toast, jackets, pasta etc. Then I read a thing on 'managing nausea through treatment' and that's what they said anyway. Water, cold foods & plain foods. I'm soooo brilliant :-)
Anyway enough of my gibber gabber. I feeling like i've got rid of that poo parcel present now.